Like most people, I tend to have recurring dreams. Here's a sampling of the ones that tend to repeat:
- I can fly & I'm flying endlessly in some crazy amusement park world....whee!
- I've overslept & just realized that I'm still in college & have a major assignment due this morning....and I haven't even started it.
- I'm endlessly running to get to someone or somewhere & I usually wake up right before I get to my destination.
- I hate this one, but I have had it countless times (since I was in high school)...there's a party going on in my living room, but I'm in my bedroom watching everyone have a good time. Then I notice a man is looking at me through my bedroom window, with a crazed look on his face...he starts to slide open the bedroom window & come into my room. There's a knife between his teeth, and he's grinning an evil grin...I'm scared frozen...my mouth is open & I'm trying to yell out for help, but no sound is coming...he's still coming through the window & I'm still frozen...then I wake up.
Besides these panicky, stressed out dreams, there's also the assorted fluffy, happy, goofy dreams (which I don't mind) that I have to keep me from going insane. Being a big 'Mo, I also have the saucy dreams of me (with a killer bod, yo) and a friend (or 3) doing what makes me really happy (no, not shopping...I'm not that gay)...
Back to last night's dream (nightmare): I'm in my backyard & watching 2 baby alligators that are in a chain link fence type of a cage. The 2 alligators are only about 18" long (tail to mouth). One of them walks over towards where I'm standing & starts to burrow under the cage and within seconds he's escaped & running around the yard. Then the 2nd one does the same thing & starts to chase a little girl around the yard. She's screaming and running away, but the alligator is faster and knocks her down with it's tail. Then it's trying to bite her ear off. I get to the little girl and grab the alligator by the tail. I start to pound it's face with my fist. Then the baby alligator transforms into a little 3 year old girl. I keep beating her in the face and she starts to cry. Then I realize that I've been beating a little girl and she's asking me the same question: "why?...why are you doing this to me?....why?"..........she looks like the little girl from The Chronicles of Narnia (Lucy...I think)....then I set her down & walk away from her. Her head is bashed in & there are black circles around her eyes....I walk away from her, and she's still crying & still asking me "why?"...
Then I woke up...I had been crying myself...That little face is still haunting me...I have no idea what that dream means, but I definitely don't want this one to repeat.